Throughout 2008, I think I have never really watched a lot of films. I have started becoming seriously interested in films ever since I saw “Coffee and Cigarettes”, and considered myself a “film buff” ever since “The Dreamers”. But now, it’s been awhile since I saw “The Dreamers” the last time, and I wonder if the film still has the same magic on me.
Yesterday, while looking into my archives, I also realized that I used to watch much less films. Whereas Shii had times where he watched more than one movie a day, I have only had that during film festivals, especially the silent film festival last year. But apart from that, I probably watched 4-5 films every month, and every single one of them made an impact. I loved those films, almost all of them, I thought about them a lot and remember them vividly. Nowadays, there are months during which I watch no films, and others where I watch a film every second day. On average, I am now at a little less than 10 films per month.
I have always had lists of films I wanted to see, but now I am seriously treating them like shopping lists with titles to check off. I see some of those lists as positive (Shii’s and 314’s favorites, Jim Jarmusch’s votes for the Sight and Sound poll in 2002), but some of them are quite a problem due to their sheer length, like the list of Criterion films, the AFI 100’s, other critics’ favorite lists. I know that I have always been afraid of not being able to see everything I want to see, but isn’t it better (and happier) to see a select number of titles which I truly like rather than trying to see everything and then feel indifferent about them?
Using lists also leads to another problem – you watch other people’s choices, not your own. While I am genuinely interested in my friends’ lists, because those films go beyond just the film itself, but also says something about the person who made the list, I don’t think it’s a good idea to rely upon other people too much. If I did that, I would never have seen “No man’s land”, “Kontroll”, “Rudo y Cursi”, “A Midsummer night’s dream” (the 1999 version), “A time to love and a time to die”, “Brick”, “Scoop”, “Die Legende von Paul und Paula”, “Va savor” etc. etc. Some of my favorite movies are completely unknown, and there probably is a good reason for that. Somehow, I need to find a new way to choose what films I want to see. But what should I do?