I tried my best this year to blog the Berlinale before March came along such that it wouldn’t be yet another month before I write this “afterthoughts” posting, but then again I am perhaps a little hard on myself. After all, the Berlinale itself lasts for 10 days, which means there are only 9 days after the last Berlinale day for me to reach that goal. Instead, I should say this is the Sunday exactly 2 weeks after the last Berlinale Sunday, and my memories of those days are reasonably fresh. (I made myself blog 4 films per evening whenever I could, and hey – I am doing 5-7 days better than last year at least, despite not blogging for days because lots of things happened.)
One could say that I have grown older this year. While my first Berlinale 2009 was full of mistakes and ultimately rather disappointing (I’d say almost every film 2009 was worse than every film from 2017), the second (in 2014) was a full-blown love story and the third (in 2015) the first inkling of a true relationship – still passionate, but a little less crazy. This year, the relationship solidified, I want to be in full control and play everything very safe.
I was also comparably less tired than the years before, though this was due to mostly non-Berlinale related reasons: O is sleeping through very well and did not get sick (and neither did I), I spent much less time with activities outside the Berlinale (and eating out) because I had no visitors and I watched less films than 2014 (though just as many as 2015), and I was careful not to overdo it because my body needs more rest than usual. With less tiredness, my reaction is also more subdued. I fondly look back at the greatness of the films I have seen, but by design it’s been a less ecstatic feeling than the years before. The Berlinale still blows my mind and is a highlight of my year, but it has less of an impact on me now.
Maybe I will forever dream of a year where I can afford to plunge myself completely into the Berlinale experience (50 films in 10 days, that’s the goal!), but who knows when that will come. It’s also important for the program to be good, of course, and this year I was just particularly lucky. This is Pixelmatsch’s first Berlinale since 2009 without really seeing anything at all, and he says he wants to actively take days off for it next year because work has been so tiring lately. We will see. Seems like we are all growing older.
Lacking its usual outside activities and visitors, this Berlinale was also pretty lonely, even though Loris kindly accompanied me to some of the films. Ironically I spent most of my social Berlinale time with the old man and Danish dude this year, whom I both met standing in line the Berlinale. It would be amusing if I actually end up keeping contact with them over time.
The statistics this year look quite similar to last year’s, except that I watched much less Asian and US movies. I still spend most of my time at the Retrospektive films, but most shockingly I ended up without a single Forum film this year. It makes sense: Forum films are mostly hit or miss, and I was too risk-averse this year to give them a proper chance, even though I secretly dream of seeing another “Koza” or “Ship bun”. As always, I went to the CinemaxX the most often by far, and I managed to get into the Zoo Palast, the Cubix and the International, my favorite venues. (Heck, maybe “Ciao Ciao” was worth it for the cushion-y seats at the Cubix 9!) I am just a little sad not to have been to the Delphi, even though I don’t even like it that much (it’s just so terribly organized), but I have fond memories of lovely Q&As in it (“Velvet Terrorists”, “Ai no Mukidashi”).
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